4 Years

by Komencanto Eterna

August 7, 2022

4 years

Of backhanded compliments disguised with smile
Of sideways glances followed by quickly looking away
Of broken promises, deceit, and lies
Of adults telling me I was doing everything right
Of adults telling me I was doing everything wrong
Of adults telling me these were the best years of my life
Of adults
Of stress, sleep deprivation, and eating disorders
Of me begging and pleading with the system
Of me begging for joy and not finding it
Of depression and suicidality
Of failed mental health services
Of me hoping someone would stop and ask if I needed help
Of me rejecting help, I don't deserve it
Of locked doors, empty buildings, and walking around unnoticed
Of being a ghost to myself and others

I won't miss it

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